I Was In A Sex Cult For 10 Years — Here’s My Story

✏️ Highlights

There is a particularly interesting group of humans on the planet. They go by the name Deer Tribe Metis Medicine Society. They are a cult, but they don’t think of themselves that way. It’s easy to see why.

They (usually) aren’t doing anything illegal. But they are huge appropriators of First Nations’ ceremonies and traditions. They operate an extremely weird secret sexual society called the Lodge of Amenti where women are instructed to have sexual intercourse with randomly assigned partners in bizarre “ceremonies.”

It Started With A Sweat Lodge

Native American Sweat Lodge.

I was told it offered physical, mental, emotional,

I was told it offered physical, mental, emotional, spiritual and sexual awakening.

was becoming part of a new community of welcoming people who seemed to “get me.” And it felt absolutely wonderful. Suddenly my life had meaning. It no longer seemed to matter that I had a master’s degree and struggled to find a decent-​paying job. I started to believe, because I was constantly being told, that I had an important mission to fulfill on the planet. They called it my Sacred Dream. And I could learn ancient magical practices that would help me generate all the resources I ever needed to live out my full potential. I couldn’t imagine being any happier. For A While My Life Seemed To Improve It was easy to think I was getting involved in something good.

The skills I learned helped me get jobs and deal with my emotional issues. I met the man I would later marry and we received guidance and coaching that would supposedly help us maintain a “co-​empowered relationship” for the rest of our lives. A lot of what this group teaches is just repackaged psychology 101.

I went along with their belief systems and life philosophy. I kept up a rigorous daily routine of constant self-​examination, meditation and exercise. All in all, I ended up giving them close to $60,000 dollars for my “personal development training.”

When you’re in a cult, there are all kinds of red flags. Even though you see them, you learn to ignore them.

So, a little thing happens and you put it on a shelf. You forget about it and carry on, because what else are you going to do? Group think is powerful and the leaders who are “mentoring” you assure you that absolutely nothing is wrong.

the shelf gets heavier and heavier. But eventually, the shelf breaks.

For the previous 7 years I had been attending their “sacred sexuality” workshops called Quodoushka. I had been told these would help me recover from sexual abuse I had experienced earlier in life. Unfortunately, these workshops are exploitative and damaging. They are taught by unlicensed teachers who are completely brainwashed. My fibromyalgia resurfaced. My PTSD got worse. And my marriage was on a lifeline.

the whole world shut down because of Covid-​19. Including my cult.

There is a particularly interesting group of humans on the planet. They go by the name Deer Tribe Metis Medicine Society. They are a cult, but they don’t think of themselves that way. It’s easy to see why.

They (usually) aren’t doing anything illegal. But they are huge appropriators of First Nations’ ceremonies and traditions. They operate an extremely weird secret sexual society called the Lodge of Amenti where women are instructed to have sexual intercourse with randomly assigned partners in bizarre “ceremonies.”

It Started With A Sweat Lodge

Native American Sweat Lodge.

I was told it offered physical, mental, emotional,

I was told it offered physical, mental, emotional, spiritual and sexual awakening.

was becoming part of a new community of welcoming people who seemed to “get me.” And it felt absolutely wonderful. Suddenly my life had meaning. It no longer seemed to matter that I had a master’s degree and struggled to find a decent-​paying job. I started to believe, because I was constantly being told, that I had an important mission to fulfill on the planet. They called it my Sacred Dream. And I could learn ancient magical practices that would help me generate all the resources I ever needed to live out my full potential. I couldn’t imagine being any happier. For A While My Life Seemed To Improve It was easy to think I was getting involved in something good.

The skills I learned helped me get jobs and deal with my emotional issues. I met the man I would later marry and we received guidance and coaching that would supposedly help us maintain a “co-​empowered relationship” for the rest of our lives. A lot of what this group teaches is just repackaged psychology 101.

I went along with their belief systems and life philosophy. I kept up a rigorous daily routine of constant self-​examination, meditation and exercise. All in all, I ended up giving them close to $60,000 dollars for my “personal development training.”

When you’re in a cult, there are all kinds of red flags. Even though you see them, you learn to ignore them.

So, a little thing happens and you put it on a shelf. You forget about it and carry on, because what else are you going to do? Group think is powerful and the leaders who are “mentoring” you assure you that absolutely nothing is wrong.

the shelf gets heavier and heavier. But eventually, the shelf breaks.

For the previous 7 years I had been attending their “sacred sexuality” workshops called Quodoushka. I had been told these would help me recover from sexual abuse I had experienced earlier in life. Unfortunately, these workshops are exploitative and damaging. They are taught by unlicensed teachers who are completely brainwashed. My fibromyalgia resurfaced. My PTSD got worse. And my marriage was on a lifeline.

the whole world shut down because of Covid-​19. Including my cult.